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The Difference between the Impossible and the Possible lies in a Person's Determinationdreamsthis is a dream that i had a few days ago.. it felt strange as i usually don't remember it so clearly for so long.. this is because its contents are what i care about so much..
A familar face..
A familar place..
In front of me was a figure, blocking the light shining from the window behind.. i was walking towards the figure from a distance and felt werid inside.. something's not quite right... i know it was there to see me... to tell me something...
then i saw, the figure holding something... it's thick and quite bulky..
i walked nearer to the figure but i don't know for what reason, i turned left, heading to another room.. i guess i was trying to avoid the figure...
when i finally decided to open the door and walk out, the figure walk towards me and pass me the thick and bulky thing that was in its hands and walked away.. it was a book...
i found a place to rest my legs and start exploring the book.. i saw a lot of cut outs which was pasted inside the book.. it was trying to tell me something... there are pictures too... and there, i realise the story the figure is trying to tell me...
the figure knows and it don't want to be involve in this...
there, i was so down... i finally got the answer i wanted..
i tried to talk to the figure but it just don't reply to me..
broken into pieces..
now i know..
it knows...
it don't want to get involve... time for miracleTime for Miracle
Adam Lambert
It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile. Every kiss I can't forget This aching heart ain't broken yet Oh God I wish I could make you see Cause I know this flame isn't dying So nothing can stop me from trying Baby you know that Maybe it's time for miracles Cause I ain't giving up on love You know that Maybe it's time for miracles Cause I ain't giving up on love No I ain't giving up on us I just want to be with you Cause living is so hard to do When all I know is trapped inside your eyes The future I cannot forget This aching heart ain't broken yet Oh God I wish I could make you see Cause I know this flame isn't dying So nothing can stop me from trying Baby you know that Maybe it's time for miracles Cause I ain't giving up on love You know that Maybe it's time for miracles Cause I ain't giving up on love No I ain't giving up on us Baby can you feel it coming? You know I can hear it, Hear every soul, Baby when you feel me feeling you You know it's time... Baby you know that Maybe it's time for miracles Cause I ain't giving up on love You know that Maybe it's time for miracles Cause I ain't giving up on love You know I ain't giving up on us You know I ain't giving up on Oh I ain't giving up on us nothingit's been a long time since i last bloged... just a few things to update and share..
life is still as bored as ever.. nothing seems to make it more interesteing as i know i need to go back to camp the next day... it's really not something i am looking foward to.. everything there is fine but i just wanna go back to studies... although architecture is a few hunderd times more stress and has a few thousand times more of workload, i still prefer going back... haha... this is because it's a lot more interesting.. but nvm, i know my time will come... i just have to be patience... haha...
anyway, i went for a prize presentation ceremony last saturday, 31 oct 2009.. it was held in one of the ballrooms in ritz carlton hotel, which is beside marina square.. hahaha... The event was not quite what i expected... as stated, it was a prize presentation ceremony... but, it was not stated that there is going to be a long and boring semier and dialoge session which nearly kill me... it was like a never ending talk.. the speaker was a bit strange too.. haha... anyway, i had my lunch there too.. it was quite ok except for the salmon which taste like a slimy semi solid stuff... i prefer fresh and raw salmon.. lol... other than that, the rest of the food was ok...
after the event, i met my friends to watch 'jennifer's body'... it's a stupid show.... a possesed girl who eat human intestines... wtf.. the lamest part is how and why the girl got possesed.. it because a rock band want to get famous and so, they 'sacrifice' the girl to satan in hope of getting their band famous... how lame is that... the whole show is a waste of time.. the show is just strange but entertaining there are a lot of stupid scenes in the movie which makes me laugh).. anyway, after the show, we went around walking and reached home at around 11+ pm..
it was stupid though... after so many months of sun and partially covered sky, suddenly a few bolts of lightning strikes and hit in all directions around me... although it is not as bad as it used to be, but somehow i still feel the static from the lightning running through me.. i really wish there is some way i can transform the dark clouds into clear sky and enjoy the warm sun but i guess there is nothing i can do.. i guess the only thing i c an do is try to get rid of the dark clouds and advoid getting struck by lightning again...
it always couldn't be the way i want it to be.. sucks.. recent bordombored is the only word i can say recently... life seems so pointless without architecture... hahaha... it's like i have been so use to be doing archi work everyday that now, because of NS, i have nothing to do all of a sudden.. all the burden, worries and so on (archi related) that i used to have just vanish all of a sudden.. hahaha.... no archi for 2 years... although it feels werid to me, it's actually quite a good getaway for me... it's time for me to leave archi alone and rest for a while... i have a feeling i have been doing so much work that i have forgotten what architecture is.. i know i tried to create spaces and so on in my design during my year 3 project.. but now that i think of it, something seems to be missing... it just don't seem right... it's like a boring piece of shit that i have created out of the mess in my mind... submissions are always near and there issn't anytime for me to really think through the design.. now that i have relieve myself from architecture, i see things more clearly.. i find that i can't just trap myself inside the archi world and never get out... i should in fact go out more often and enjoy myself as to relieve my mind... i must still do my work but not to the extent of squeezing myself till nothing is left... i often feel drained during my polytechnic education... there is jus no time for us to relax... i often thought that i jus need to keep thinking and working and i will score well... but now, i know that's the wrong mindset.. the thing is, i can score well if i do that. but, is the design good? my answer is not really.. i have look through my 3 years of work and i think all of them sucks.... the only work i like is my year one's work... my year two was a total screwed up bullshit... my year three was not that good..
in short, my work in polytechnic sucks big time..
anyway, ns life is damn relax.. i am starting to like this kind of relax life.. hahahahha... don't know if i can cope with my uni 2 years later.. lol...
happy news, i will be going to sarawak, mulu caves during september... whoo!! it's going to be fun... hahaha... i can't wait to go... lol....
sad news, i need to stay in from monday to wedesday.. it's like wtf sia... but the good thing about this is that i save on transport fare.. hahaha...
last thing, we will be celebrating christopher birthday this coming saturday... it's like we have forgotten to celebrate his birthday for the past 2 years.. felt damn guilty that he remember mine... lol...
i don't know why... but these few days, it kept flashing back... it's kind of irritating... but still............ feels sucky..
thinking..it's has been 1 month since i enlisted into NS.. it has been 3 months since i graduated from SP.. i can't believe i have graduated! lol... everything seems so fast.. it feels like i jus started poly life a few weeks ago... it feels so strange.. it's as if my body is at the present time while the rest of me is left wondering in the past.. i still remember the time when i was still in secondary school.. it seems like forever to NS.. but now here i am, serving NS.. lol... it's fast huh..
i wonder, why must our universe be dominate by time.. everything in the universe is link to time, for example, gravity, movement, planets, stars and us.. it seems like without time, everything will jus collapse.. is there a universe where time runs in a different way? or it don't even exist? what will that world be like? what will lifeforms behave without the absense of time? how will everything run without time as the source? will thing age? can people go back to the same event there were doing? can things be written again? and of course, can things even exist without time? |
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